Why Meditation and Seriously, Two Hours a Day!?

In the past few years, meditation has become an important part of my life.  And an amazing and wonderful blessing in it.  Prior to that, I had tried meditation before.  However, for me, it was its own very special kind of torture.  I went to the Chopra Center more than ten years go with Shirsten for a week.  We meditated every day, and learned about the Primordial Sound Meditation.  Had lectures from Deepak Chopra (whose books I had read and really enjoyed), ate good vegetarian food and had some pretty mind-blowingly wonderful massage treatments.

But the meditation?  Uck.

I would sit for what seemed like forever.  My mind would wander.  Ohm.  Heim.  Nama.  (That's my primordial sound meditation--the meditation the world was making in the place and time that I was born.)

Ohm.  Heim.  Nama.

I would set a timer with a nice little chime for 20 minutes.  I rarely made it that long.

I wanted to meditate.

I was convinced that meditation in general was a good idea.

I believed that meditation could help me.

But I just hated it.

HATED it.

I tried some other forms in the intervening years.  And lots of other self-improvement stuff.  Anthony Robbins.  Limitless.  Breakthrough.  Miracle Morning.  Afformations (No that is not a misspelled "affirmations", its a book by Noah St. John).  There were plenty more.  Always searching.  Always reaching.

In early 2017 I had some experiences that amped up my learning, but I'll talk more about that later.  Suffice it to say that by the end of 2017 I was saying that 2018 was going to be an amazing year.  Amazing things were going to happen.  I didn't know what.  I didn't know how.  But I kept saying it.  And I really believed it.

The very first week of 2018 I had a beautiful young woman named Amanda walk into my office.  She was looking for help in selling a product she had been developing and she was going through a divorce.  I was very impressed by her and we had a fabulous conversation.  She told me about some books she was reading and some things that she was doing.  I wrote down the names of the authors.  I do that quite a lot.  Rarely, however, do I actually buy and then read the books.

But this time I went home at the end of the day (it was Friday) and I kept thinking about it.  Finally on Sunday I went out to my car and rifled around until I found the sticky note I had written on.

Joe Dispenza.  I googled him.

I watched a 20 minute TED talk.

I watched a few more You Tube videos with him.

By the end of that day I had spent time on his site and purchased one of his books.  Break The Habit of Being Yourself.

By the end of that week I had started on both his Intensive and Progressive Online Workshops and ordered a half dozen of his meditations.

By April, I had been to Sardinia, Italy on the Mediterranean and spent six hours a day in wonderful meditation.

It has unquestionably and in the most beautiful ways imaginable, transformed my life.

So now I have the joy and the pleasure and a tingling, wonderful start to my day by meditating for around two hours every morning.  Most mornings.  Sometimes I miss a day or two.  Especially when I'm traveling.  But I get up at 5:00 am.  And I meditate.

I went from feeling stress and pain, depression, anxiety, fear (sometimes crippling), longing and reaching for sleep at the end of every day to escape it to JOY.  HOPE.  BEAUTY.  PRESENCE.

I know that I'm condensing two years of experiences into a page or so, and I will write more about it and bring in some of my journals, but.

Today.  Now.  I.  Love.  Meditation.  And, probably for the first time since I was a small child I love me.

This morning I did The Pineal Gland meditation.  It's an hour and 20 minutes.  Then I did the last half of Tuning in to New Potentials (which I do almost every day) and I finished off with some of the Morning Meditation.

My Jemma puppy is lying right where I meditate every day.  She is even snuggling up to my blanket, which I can't seem to meditate without.  Actually, I get very cold when I meditate.  So I usually wear a sweatshirt, warm socks, and snuggle up with a fuzzy blanket.

Here is a link to his website.  https://drjoedispenza.com/

I'll go into a lot more detail in the coming weeks, but it is something that I do.  And something that I love.

I was trying to find a picture that demonstrates the way meditation makes me feel...this doesn't quite do it but it is nice.  :)